No arms, No legs, No worries!

After I watched the video on YouTube, I looked at myself; I’m awake and feel so ashamed. He was an extraordinary man with no arms and legs.

What makes him extraordinary?



Nick Vujicic, an incredible man of god and testimony of all the young people. From life without limbs with life without limits, he gave hope around the globe and me. Nick Vujicic has proved that’s nothing is impossible, everyone has their own value in life.

"Is a lie to think that you are not good enough."
"Is a lie to think that you are not worth anything."

I always have doubt to the things that I do; I always think that I’m not good enough, and I always think that I’m nothing.

Am I lying myself as well?

After a lot of frustration, I think is time for me to get start over. I need to adapt the new life and situation and try to stop struggled with depression and loneliness. I guess sometimes I have to let things go so there’s a room for better things to come into my life.

Like what Nick’s said, we go through to the storm of the life and we don’t know how long the storm gonna be. Although I’m not sure if I can make it or not but I want to smile much and face the storm bravely just like what Nick’s did! And I know is not going to move on until I accept what happened. But I have to. I don’t want to wish it, I WANT to do it! I don’t want to believe in doomed. I want to change it for my own good.

I want to believe that “I’m gorgeous just the way I am” as well.

Besides, I look up to Nick and respect him for telling everyone his life story, believe in god, never give up and give courage to all the people to face their life bravely. He is the coolest person ever. I adore you, Nick Vujicic, and may god bless you~



Here are the video, hope it will help to find your courage in your life too.

Specially to.....

It’s been 2 months here; my life is full of questions,

I don’t know what I want and what I need it the most.

The lifestyle at here is dull… nothing special,

Going to school, doing homework, walking back home, cook dinner and so on,

Weekends is even worst, lay on bed, listen to the music, watch movies, blah blah blah

And I don’t have any intention to open my books to study, where can I find my “study mood”?!Damn it!!!

Sometimes, I’m wondering by the time I back to Malaysia, will I have any memory at here???!!!

Until yesterday… ~~

Yesterday it was a quite interesting day to me…

I had a great night and nice chat with my buddies, and this had light up the night became…SPECIAL…

We didn’t chat much; most of it was just a nonsense joke while we were waiting for our Mr. Seow installing the software.

And I have no chance to tell u guys that I’m searching for a part time job,and yesterday I went for an interviewed.

It was a quick interviewed, took only around 5 minute for asking few questions, how long I have been in Japan, where I’m from…… I’m not sure will I get the job or not because the person said my Japanese is “muzukashi” (I think should be meant difficult to understand”).

But the person did note down my name and contact number; I hope he will call me. I hope I can get the job because I wish this job can make my life become BUSIER~…. Now, I’m facing a problem, worrying that I could not understand what the person tells me. I’m stepping out the 1st step and trying my best d so I wish that person can understand that too. Hopefully~~

At least yesterday the group chat can let me stopped thinking about the worries for temporarily. I’m gladded that you guys was there yesterday, really…

Suddenly I realized that what Liang’s said was right; everyone is facing their own problem, stress and pressure at there. But they were still with me on the line. Thanks a lot.




I'm sorry I lied to u guys that i didn't print screen :P.... I will look forward to another video group chat again~~ And will ask wei ling , Alicia and Chee yan to join in~

XOXO

Too good to be true

It’s fall….

It’s been a month here and I thought I could start over, but after I came to here, I realized there’s no…..starting over.

No matter where I go or whatever I do, my past seems to follow me.
I wanted to stop apologizing for my past for long time ago.…
There’s not really worked, that does not actually make me happy.

Life is not like what I’m expecting (I knew it was too good to be true), I get frustrating, emo~ing….For no reason!

I’m frazzled!!!!!

I start to have doubt on myself, lost my confident, and directions.
I feel guilty and sorry to my family, I scared I couldn’t get ahead for what they expecting and wants.

I’m worrying….

I know I shouldn’t think of that, there’s no way for me to look back but I can’t deny my paths have been complicated, I hope there’s something will make everything simple.

What can I do for now is trying to convince myself to look forward, no matter what I'm doing now, it is WORTH, and NO REGRETS!!! I don’t want to end up my life here like shit!!!
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Friends, if u sees this blog, I really, truly, madly, badly need u guys/girls supports. Don’t get mad that I still have this kind of negative thinking. Give me some time….Wish me luck!!!!

谢谢你们~

缘分是种非常奇怪的东西，人与人之间彼此如果没有缘分，就算是擦肩而过，再怎么也看不见对方，但是如果彼此之间有着浓厚的缘分，就算是相隔十万八千里，彼此之间还是会相遇，还是会重逢。

七个月前的我，一夜之间失去了我最珍惜的友谊，七个月后，我找到了最真挚的友谊。虽然只有短短的两个月，但对我而言，这两个月里的每一天我重来都没有白过，每天每天都是满满的开心，满满的幸福。

虽然现在我再也没有办法像以前一样和你们聚在一起了，可是这一切一切的回忆我都回牢牢的记住在心里。在离开之前，也有很多很多的话想对你们说，可是却不懂该怎么说出口，也来不及写卡片给你们。。。

谢谢你们的出现，让我知道我再也不是一个人

谢谢你们成为我的朋友

谢谢你们的礼物

谢谢你们给我留下了许多美好的回忆

谢谢你们让我选择相信，让我有得依赖

谢谢你们陪我买醉

谢谢你们包容我的任性

谢谢你们让我可以无所不谈

最后，谢谢你们把我变成和你们一样的“Hongso”(LOLxxx)

我会努力的过着每一天，期待着与你们重逢的将来。。。^^

只想放过自己

我变得情绪化，原来没有什么事情比放弃更简单了

我不想回到原点， 我不想回到原来的我，原来那个懦弱的我

脸上带着的面具，再利用着我擅长的微笑来伪装

都只是想掩盖着我心里的伤痕

当我越不想让人看穿我的伪装，我就越不快乐

这时候我才发现原来我的幸福一直都缺席

我不停的问着自己，什么时候我才可以放过我自己？

让我可以放纵听和唱着喜欢的歌曲大声的哭，歇斯底里的把心里的愤怒和伤悲通通都呐喊出来

是啊，我以为我是谁 ，我以为我的任性都有人能够包容吗？

我伪装出的乐观都快隐藏不住了，其实我好累好累

我真的好想好想放过我自己

最幸福的一晚

2010 年6 月26 日 将会是我在马来西亚度过的最后一个生日。。。
生日其实对我而言一点也不重要，但我觉得今年过得很有意义。。。
我收到了许许多多的讯息，但这一些远远都比不上这3个人的祝福。。。
Ah Ding 的关心，
老婆（Wei Ling）的到来，
Hui Juin 的陪伴，
有她们打从心里的祝福，是我今年得到最棒的礼物。。
那一晚，喝得茫茫的我，真的觉得很幸福，
这一次， 不是为悲伤而喝，而是因为喜欢而喝
一直以来我都是最喜欢喝酒后飘飘然的感觉
飘着飘着，很多不开心的事情就会飘走
每当飘飘然的时候，总是会让我留下美好回忆
第一次是在Langkawi， 这一次就在Batu Ferringgi。。。
满脸红彤彤，走路也不能在走稳了，
在路上差点也跌了好几次
但我没摔跤，也没受伤
因为一路上老婆和Hui Juin紧紧地牵着我的手直到车上 。。。
对我而言，这是个很好玩的回忆。
再来是家人的陪伴，
和我一起吃了一顿丰富的晚餐。。。
只是一个简单的生日，不需要生日蛋糕，不需要生日歌曲，不需要昂贵的礼物，更不需要一大堆所谓的“朋友”庆生。。。
对我而言，重视你的朋友会无时无刻的关心你而不是等到生日时才想起你。。。
那一个晚上我偷偷的许了一个愿望，希望真心关心我的朋友和家人都能平安幸福。。。
最后我想说的只有，
谢谢你们！

人生的终点站

如果人生真的就 像公车一样，能一路走到终点站，那么哪一站才是我的终点站呢？

这期间走过了许 许多多的站， 也经历了许许多多的事情，

下错了站，迷路 了，就哭哭啼啼的只会站在原地不动，等待着一双温暖的手为我伸出援手。

有时候，坐过头 了，也错过了很多很多事情， 再也不能重来。

每当当我加快脚 步想抓住一件事情，它就会越跑越远，让我跑得喘不过气，就算想追也追不到。

就好比以前的我 一直固执的追求一个清白，一个公道和一句“对不起”，我等不到为我说 出一句公道话的人，我等不到一个做错了事情来道歉的人，更别说等待着为我伸出援手的一双手。

但， 我已经明白了 其实也不需要道歉，因为道歉根本就没有用，失去的东西就是失去了，伤害了还是伤害，道歉并不能让时间倒转，也不能让发生的事情过去。所以就算是得不到一个 公道，一句“对不起”，我也无所谓了，因为我得到的更多，至少这件事让我知道很多事情在别人的眼里不过就是如此。

知了，明了，我 也不会放在心上。这一次是我活了那么久想要认真的为自己而生存，第一次想要靠自己生活，所以我不想轻易的再为别人而放弃自己。人终会有一天都会各走各的 路，没有任何人能够陪我走到终点站。

我努力地活着每 一天，就算迷路了也强迫自己找出对的路，我不想再站在原地不动，等待着一双不可能出现的手。我每天的在训练自己，以后就算是发生任何事情我都会靠自己的双 手解决事情。如果还是不行，我知道老天爷是疼我的，这一站失败了，下一站它会让我更好。

不管未来我将停 在哪一站，我都不怕了，因为我相信只要我有勇气，肯努力，就算是一个人，我都能够走到最终的终点站。

我爱“你”

我。。。

爱上“她”的执著

爱上“她”的任性

爱上“她" 的坚持

爱上“她”的自我

爱上“她”的无酒不欢

爱上“她”的卖醉

爱上“她”的脆弱

更爱上“她”的眼泪

我真的很爱很爱“她”




可是。。。





由始至终。。。






我爱的只有我自己。。。






我只能够爱上自己。。因为。。。






我只有我自己

牵挂

从一开始的微 笑，到最后的痛苦，一切一切对我而言已经没有什么意义了。

也许是上天故意 给了我一个小小的考验，很可惜的是，这个考验， 我不合格了。

与其说是哀莫大 于心死，到不如就当作为有缘无份吧。。。

转眼间，我也过 了好几个月前所未有的平静生活，我很喜欢，也不想改变了。

但，是不是能够 继续的平静，不是我能说的算。。。

它是个机会，还 是另一个悲剧的开始，也不是我能够预测得到。。。

去了能怎样，不 去又能怎样。。。我很懊恼。。。。

也许这会是我唯 一能够从新开始的地方，只在于我肯不肯踏出地一步。。。

奇怪的是我已经 没有当初那份兴奋的感觉了。。。为什么呢？？

是因为心里的那 份牵挂吗？？

是不是只要没有 牵挂，很多事情我就可以狠心一点了？。。。

不为别人，只为 自己，我做得到吗？