It’s been a month here and I thought I could start over, but after I came to here, I realized there’s no…..starting over.
No matter where I go or whatever I do, my past seems to follow me.
I wanted to stop apologizing for my past for long time ago.…
There’s not really worked, that does not actually make me happy.
Life is not like what I’m expecting (I knew it was too good to be true), I get frustrating, emo~ing….For no reason!
I start to have doubt on myself, lost my confident, and directions.
I feel guilty and sorry to my family, I scared I couldn’t get ahead for what they expecting and wants.
I know I shouldn’t think of that, there’s no way for me to look back but I can’t deny my paths have been complicated, I hope there’s something will make everything simple.
What can I do for now is trying to convince myself to look forward, no matter what I'm doing now, it is WORTH, and NO REGRETS!!! I don’t want to end up my life here like shit!!!
Friends, if u sees this blog, I really, truly, madly, badly need u guys/girls supports. Don’t get mad that I still have this kind of negative thinking. Give me some time….Wish me luck!!!!