Monday, November 22, 2010

Specially to.....

It’s been 2 months here; my life is full of questions,

I don’t know what I want and what I need it the most.

The lifestyle at here is dull… nothing special,

Going to school, doing homework, walking back home, cook dinner and so on,

Weekends is even worst, lay on bed, listen to the music, watch movies, blah blah blah

And I don’t have any intention to open my books to study, where can I find my “study mood”?!Damn it!!!

Sometimes, I’m wondering by the time I back to Malaysia, will I have any memory at here???!!!

Until yesterday… ~~

Yesterday it was a quite interesting day to me…

I had a great night and nice chat with my buddies, and this had light up the night became…SPECIAL…

We didn’t chat much; most of it was just a nonsense joke while we were waiting for our Mr. Seow installing the software.

And I have no chance to tell u guys that I’m searching for a part time job,and yesterday I went for an interviewed.

It was a quick interviewed, took only around 5 minute for asking few questions, how long I have been in Japan, where I’m from…… I’m not sure will I get the job or not because the person said my Japanese is “muzukashi” (I think should be meant difficult to understand”).

But the person did note down my name and contact number; I hope he will call me. I hope I can get the job because I wish this job can make my life become BUSIER~…. Now, I’m facing a problem, worrying that I could not understand what the person tells me. I’m stepping out the 1st step and trying my best d so I wish that person can understand that too. Hopefully~~

At least yesterday the group chat can let me stopped thinking about the worries for temporarily. I’m gladded that you guys was there yesterday, really…

Suddenly I realized that what Liang’s said was right; everyone is facing their own problem, stress and pressure at there. But they were still with me on the line. Thanks a lot.




I'm sorry I lied to u guys that i didn't print screen :P.... I will look forward to another video group chat again~~ And will ask wei ling , Alicia and Chee yan to join in~

XOXO

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Too good to be true

It’s fall….

It’s been a month here and I thought I could start over, but after I came to here, I realized there’s no…..starting over.

No matter where I go or whatever I do, my past seems to follow me.
I wanted to stop apologizing for my past for long time ago.…
There’s not really worked, that does not actually make me happy.

Life is not like what I’m expecting (I knew it was too good to be true), I get frustrating, emo~ing….For no reason!

I’m frazzled!!!!!

I start to have doubt on myself, lost my confident, and directions.
I feel guilty and sorry to my family, I scared I couldn’t get ahead for what they expecting and wants.

I’m worrying….

I know I shouldn’t think of that, there’s no way for me to look back but I can’t deny my paths have been complicated, I hope there’s something will make everything simple.

What can I do for now is trying to convince myself to look forward, no matter what I'm doing now, it is WORTH, and NO REGRETS!!! I don’t want to end up my life here like shit!!!
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Friends, if u sees this blog, I really, truly, madly, badly need u guys/girls supports. Don’t get mad that I still have this kind of negative thinking. Give me some time….Wish me luck!!!!

Monday, October 11, 2010

谢谢你们~

缘分是种非常奇怪的东西,人与人之间彼此如果没有缘分,就算是擦肩而过,再怎么也看不见对方,但是如果彼此之间有着浓厚的缘分,就算是相隔十万八千里,彼此之间还是会相遇,还是会重逢。

七个月前的我,一夜之间失去了我最珍惜的友谊,七个月后,我找到了最真挚的友谊。虽然只有短短的两个月,但对我而言,这两个月里的每一天我重来都没有白过,每天每天都是满满的开心,满满的幸福。

虽然现在我再也没有办法像以前一样和你们聚在一起了,可是这一切一切的回忆我都回牢牢的记住在心里。在离开之前,也有很多很多的话想对你们说,可是却不懂该怎么说出口,也来不及写卡片给你们。。。

谢谢你们的出现,让我知道我再也不是一个人

谢谢你们成为我的朋友

谢谢你们的礼物

谢谢你们给我留下了许多美好的回忆

谢谢你们让我选择相信,让我有得依赖

谢谢你们陪我买醉

谢谢你们包容我的任性

谢谢你们让我可以无所不谈

最后,谢谢你们把我变成和你们一样的“Hongso”(LOLxxx)

我会努力的过着每一天,期待着与你们重逢的将来。。。^^